A Short Rant On Depression

Imagine a dark monster clinging onto your back, refusing to let go, ruining and darkening each and every thought of yours. That's a popular imagery of depression. It's like the curtains are closed to your room, 24x7. No matter how happy everyone is around you or how hard people try to cheer you up.. You can't.

Because when you see a kid eating an ice cream, you don't feel like smiling anymore. You think of how the kid is going to get sick from the ice cream and how health is so fragile and how life is so pointless. It's always a downward spiral from there when you're depressed.
It's a vial of poison you carry around in your head, contaminating everything inside you. But you keep telling yourself, this vial must be hidden. This vial must not go out of these four walls you've created because if it breaks.. It spreads. It's toxic. It ruins other people's lives too. And you don't think you are good enough to take up someone's time energy or sanity. That's the problem with depression. You don't think you deserve help in the first place.

But there will come some people.
An annoying ray of sunshine, that hits right at your face when you try to be oblivious of the darkness around you. A small rift between the blinds, that helps you realize that there is light outside. And if you follow the light.. If you trust someone enough to help you.. the monster leaves.